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Originally Posted by G35POPPEDMYCHERRY
cant even tell you how many times I've done the bolded only to get the talk after....  ....i was with the baddest fillpina/italian girl and school; literally worked her for a year and i blew it. but hey you live and learn
although in ur situtation... i may be completelty wrong.... but since u said ur more invested than her... and she just brought up how she got feaked by the ex confessing "love" aka committment... it scared her away..
so maybe shes telling u all u are is a fuck buddy. some girls have the balls to just say it... she seems to be doing is subliminally...
anyways lots of mixed feelings in your case and in general nowadays in relationships because sex typically comes before dating. i dont know how it used to be; but its hard to get attracted to someone unless i kind of get to know them; regardless how hot you are...
i say just play along with it; but don't do what u normally do; or shell run as thats what caused her to run from her ex...
play it by ear, u live and learn. |
I was texting
Now_Rudi about this, and honestly if all i am is a fuck buddy i'll take it bc it's fun. Issue is she's kinda chill too but that's more of a when she feels like kinda ordeal, kinda removes all of my interest because I only know her when she's feeling good, haven't really seen her "bad" side. Relationship etc is completely off the table at least until I can get a better reading of this girl.
One thing she said today was that she doesn't talk about this interesting stuff with her girl bff's which was odd, but as I said deliberating this with rudi made me realize something: I'm completely lost in my own shit and I need to figure that out before branching out on anything.
im with you on that i also need to know someone a bit better to get into a relationship. last thing i need this to become is my dynamic with her to become an oneitis kinda situation, which is weird because generally the doctor prescribes seeing other people on the side to not get caught up but i haven't been slacking on my prescription either
I don't know, I really don't know. I shouldn't be thinking about this especially with a midterm coming up tomorrow. I'm at least glad I took you guys' advice and went up to meet up with her, just wish it didn't turn out this way so I could've at least cleared my mind off it completely. Ghosting would have been the easy way out, just forget and move on kinda thing. Slightly wish that happened instead of this whole bullshit won't lie.
On the bright side, I feel like I laid out stuff pretty openly. I don't mean involved in like "i want to spend the rest of my life with you forever", but more of a "I feel like you know me more than I know you". If she does open up we'll see what happens, if she doesn't I'll ride it out until she graduates in a few months. After that who knows what'll happen, ya know? She's going to grad school in the city, I'm going to be stuck here for another year, but given not much about my future is set (I have a decent path I'm on, but nothing is set in stone yet. Don't have a job offer that starts in a year and a half) I also feel like getting caught up and thinking of the future is not doing me good when I can easily just live in the moment, at least in a relationship basis. but as a side note, I feel like not having something remotely constant is taking a toll on me because nearly the only thing that has stayed constant since my college journey has been my computer, family, a few good friends from back home and my major.
So pretty much, I think I'll continue with what I was doing. It was nice to have someone kinda regular instead of one night stands, but when that dwindled down I got caught up and started overthinking stuff. I also can't say for sure how this'll go, she might be actually sincere about what she said, or might be a very good actress. Can be either...
tldr for you lazy asses: I'm confused because I'm making myself confused by overthinking stuff. hope this doesn't sound like me rambling but if it does i can't say I'm sorry about it
jesus christ i wrote an essay, but i hope this gives those who were interested a preview into my life as of now